March 7th we visited your site.

March 7th, 2010
Hi sweet child. Today your father and I went to visit your resting site. We hadn't been to see you for one year. I am sorry that it took us so long to return. But your father reminded me that only your body is there. I can talk to you and feel your spirit anytime. And I am so thankful for that.
Yet, it was peaceful seeing the rock with your name on it. Visiting your site keeps you alive. Looking at your picture and your gown on our wall keeps you alive. Kaden, you very much are a huge part of our family. You are my son and I am so excited to meet you in heaven. I am thankful for the memories I have of you. I am thankful that I got a chance to hold you and love your small body. And I am thankful that your spirit can be felt in Adam-Ondi-Aham. I love you.
While visiting you, Leif asked me to pray. I hope you can hear my prayer for you. Because they are for you. Please remember that we love you and miss you. I love prayers.
In my prayer I told you that we are expecting 2 babies now. Please look after your mother and your siblings. If you have any extra power, please bless your siblings to grow. Leif and I so bad want to have children on this earth. We wish it could have been you. But we all know that the Lord has a bigger hand in things. I know you are being taken care of. I thank my Savior for that.
Kaden, we love you. It was so nice to visit your little tomb stone. Visit us often.

Your First Birthday

Kanden,

It has been a long time since I have written to you. I am sorry that I haven't been more diligent in writing to you. But I do pray for you almost each and every night. Your thoughts are always with Daddy and I, and we love you dearly. We are expecting again. This time, it is twins. What a special surprise it was to find out that we are having two. This shows me that the Lord is merciful. He knows and cares for our family. Please take care of our family up there. You are the older brother.

Your birthday was a very special day for us. It was fast Sunday and I had a testimony of you in my heart all day long. I never shared it openly, but I kept it in my heart. I know you live. I know you are doing a wonderful work up in heaven. I know that you have a huge testimony of the Gospel. I know you are a wonderful missionary. And I know that we get get to see you again someday.

Kaden, I made you a cake. I couldn't decide between a lion or elephant. In the end I made you an elephants. I hope you like elephant, I think you do! We also got you a book. Daddy and I read it together and watched your video. The book is entitled, "You are Special". It talks about a young man who finds out how special he really is.

Kaden, you are so special to this family. Always remember that. I can't wait to raise you. Hopefully by that time, I will have some earthy experience of being a mother. Happy Birthday Son.