Scriptures that helped your mother

"I am going to send an angel in front of you, to guard you on the way

and to bring you to the place that I have prepared."

Exodus 23:20

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding;

in all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths."

Proverbs 3: 5-6

"A little shile and ye shall not see me:

and again, a little while, and ye shall see me,

because I go to the Father."

John 16:16

"I also beheld that all children who die before they arrive at the years of

accountability are saved in the celestial kingdom of heaven."

D&C 137:10

"May I say for the consolation of those who mourn,

and for the comfort and guidance of all of us,

that no righteous man is ever taken before his time.

In the case of the faithful saints,

they are simply transferred to other fields of labor."

Joseph Fielding Smith

Your Love In Our Home

Today is January 24th. It has been 3 weeks since your delivery. Daddy and I still miss you very much.
It is hard for your mother to go to church and see little children being cuddled in their mother's arms and running around. I wish you were cuddled up in my arms. It is also hard to go to Nursery and see these precious children learn about the gospel. I again wish you were here. But I do know that you are learning about the gospel and probably have a better understanding then your parents.
Kaden, I wish everyday that you were still within me. But I am starting to understand God's plan more and more each day. Your memories will always stay near. I want you to know how we miss and love you very very much.

This is the bassinet I bought for you. It is filled with your gifts from people who loved you.

Flowers from the neighbors and your little footprints.

This is the shadow box I made you with your precious little feet.

Kaden you are our Guardian Angel. Stay near sweet one.

A Letter From Your Father

Hey little Buddy,

Your sweet mother wanted to make a book out of your blog, so this is a wonderful opportunity for me to write you a note. I am thankful for the short time that we had you in our mortal lives. I am sad that we do not get to hold you in our arms at this time. I understand that this must be and was from the beginning. It was for you to simply receive a mortal body, a righteous spirit and already proven. If possible, please visit us from time to time. Your earthly father is weak and needs all the help he can get, maybe you can convince your Heavenly Father to toss a bit more "divine assistance" my way, haha.

I am so thankful we have the knowledge of the gospel and am so thankful for the plan of salvation. Without it, my life would be full of despair and not full of joy, hope, and anticipation for what is to come. Kaden, your mother and I love you very much. I look forward so much for the time that I get to meet you. Our first child, our first boy, our little Kaden.

Love, your Father

Adah-ohdi-Ahman

After sacrament meeting on Sunday January 11th, Leif and I drove out to Adam-Ondi-Ahman. We went there for the purpose of burying our sweet little Kaden. It was sunny and beautiful. The wind was light. It was a perfect day to spend at this sacred and special place. As we entered the grounds, we can just feel the spirit. It's so comforting to know that this land is still honors as sacred land. How thankful I am that our son, Kaden, can rest here. His body will be in the right spot when the millennium comes.

Leif and I walked around for some time before we buried Kaden. We even walked out into the field and across to The Grand River. Everything was beautiful; the saints picked a wonderful place to settle. After some time, Leif and I then set out for the perfect burial site. We then found this small grove of trees right off the trail and close to the field. We thought it looked perfect. Just the right spot for our perfect son.

The site from the front (Kaden is next to the left tree).

The site from the trail. (my finger marks the spot)

Leif then dug a hole for our sweet little Kaden. I know Kaden would have liked the spot. We then filled the hole with his sweet little ashes and covered him back up. After the tome stone or marker was placed we give Kaden a small funeral service. Leif gave the eulogy. I then read the poem my mother wrote for Kaden, and I read the letter I wrote him. After the readings, Leif said a prayer. He asked that our Kaden would be protected. He asked that Kaden would remain safe. And he ended by telling Kaden we loved him. It was a special moment.

Daddy digging Kaden's burial site.

Kaden's Marker (made by his mother)

We then placed a larger rock over Kaden's burial site. As we walked away Leif said, "We love you buddy." I told Kaden we loved him. It's true .... Kaden we love you. I can't believe how much joy you gave your father and I for these couple of months. We can't wait to see you again some day. We are finally at peace, and now may you rest in peace.
We love you Kaden Leif Kanooth.

A poem from your Grandmother

Dearest Kaden

So small, so sweet, so innocent
You came into our lives
And stayed but for a moment
But then you said, “Goodbye.”

Your hands so small, so perfect
You tiny little feet
Your lips so full, your soft blonde hair
Is beauty so complete.

Kaden, oh Kaden,
What can we say?
Our hearts doth ache for thee
With each passing day.

Your Mother and your Father
They love you oh so much.
Your Grandmas and your Grandpas
Long to hold and feel your touch.

Your Cousins, Aunts, and Uncles
Want to romp and play with you
And in Heaven these great blessings
Will finally all come true.

So you see, our dear sweet Kaden
God provides for us a way,
To be a forever family
And live with you someday.

Always and Forever,
Grandma Raine

One Week Anniversary

Today is your one week anniversary. Your mother and father are doing much better. We were so thankful for the chance to hold you and be with your precious body. We are also thankful for the sweet woman at the hospital who helped make memorabilia of you. I love looking at your footprints and hand prints. Your blue gown in now in a shadow box for all to see. The pictures we have of you I hold close to my heart. You truly will never be forgotten.

Daddy went back to school on Monday and starting back into this studying habits. Mother took a couple of days off from teacher and decorated the house with memories of you. Kaden, you have brought your parents closer together. My love for your father has grown. Your father has shown me so much love and support.

We have also seen love and support from family members and friends. They have helped us out greatly during this last week. We have flowers in all rooms, our refrigerator is full of meals, and sympathy cards fill your baby box. Kaden, so many people love you. We miss you.

We Love You Son

I know I have said this one thousand times, but YOU ARE PERFECT.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KADEN LEIF KANOOTH

Today is January 3rd 2009 and it is your birthday. Happy Birthday Son!!! You were born into this world at 1:34 a.m. You weighed 1 pound 8 ounces (with your blanket on). You were so handsome! Kaden, you had your mother's lips (we call them Maughan lips). You had your father's little ears. You had blond hair and eyebrow. Your face was so cute. It was perfect. It was peaceful. Kaden, your hands and feet were also perfect. You had little toenails and fingernails. You had a cutest little knees, and your skin was so soft. Daddy and I were so proud to have made such a handsome Child of God. We love you so much. And we will always cherish January 3rd as a special birthday. On Friday January 2nd. Daddy and I entered the hospital knowing that we were going to deliver your body into this world. We couldn't wait to hold you and be with you. And I am so glad that we had that special opportunity. The delivery itself was more painful then your mother expected. I never knew how bad contractions hurt. But your father was so good to me. He became my personal nurse and took care of my every need. During the delivery itself, Daddy held my hand and made me take deep breaths. He kept telling me that I was doing good and kept kissing my forehead. You then entered this mortal life and your father got to cut your little tiny umbilical cord.

The Doctor then looked you over only to find nothing wrong with you. You were perfect! You were then wrapped in a blanket and handed to me. Kaden, it felt like you were alive. You felt so real as I held you. You were perfect to me. Daddy got to hold you also. He loves you. You and Daddy are going to have so much fun together in Heaven. The nurses then gave Daddy and I some time alone with you. It was so nice just being alone with our little family. Dad and I talked to you, loved you, and held you. Kaden, I felt your little spirit. Your spirit was in our room. I know you were with us during this whole experience. I thank you for your support. What a special young man you truly are. You have a purpose.

We then had a special opportunity to take professional pictures with you. There is a wonderful organization called, "Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep". This organization takes pictures of stillborns. There mission is to create sensitive images for families suffering the loss of a baby in hopes that the pictures will help with the healing process. The photographer, named Stephin, dressed you up in a beautiful blue gown and blue knit hat. You looked perfect. I was so thankful for this sweet organization. How precious these pictures are to me. After the photographer left, the nurses took you away to make impressions of your tiny hands and feet. Leif and I then had the chance to sleep for the first time in 22 hours. Daddy crawled into my hospital bed where we cuddled, cried, and slept together.

The best part of the day was when the nurses rolled you back into our room. You lied there quietly next to our bed. Like I had said before, you were perfect. We were a family. After some time, we were then told that the funeral home was coming to get you in 30 minutes. Those last 30 minutes were so special. Your Father and I both held you and talked to you. I sang to you. We couldn't keep our eyes off of your special face.
Then the hardest part of the whole day came, even harder then the contractions! Daddy and I had to wheel you down to the front desk and give your body over to a strange couple. We both touched you one last time and then gave your body away. Walking back to our hospital room was hard. I was so thankful to have my husband by my side. We missed you.
Mommy holding little Kaden's hand.

Kaden, I do know that I only gave birth to your mortal body. I know your little spirit was in Heaven. I know your spirit is special. I know the Lord has a mission for you. I know Daddy and I accepted the trial of losing you. I know we will get to raise you again. I know you were too pure, too lovely, and too perfect to live in this mortal world. I know the Gospel is true. I know your Father knows the Gospel is true. I know you know it is ture. I know that I am blessed to have have carried you for 24 weeks. I know our family is blessed to have had you in it. I know you will become our little Guardian Angle. I know we will see you again. Here is a picture of you in our home. The Guardian Angles are watching over you.

A Letter From Your Mother

January 1, 2009

Dear Kaden;

Leif and I are flying home on the airplane right now. We just spent the last 10 days with my family for Christmas. It was really fun to see all my siblings and play with them in the snow (four feet of snow). They were all excited to see my belly with you in it. Grandma Lorraine wanted to feel you kick so badly. She kept rubbing my belly and singing to you in hopes that you would give her a Grandma kick. All of your Aunts and Uncle Mathew liked to poke my belly button and feel your presence.
Then on Christmas day you surprised your father and gave him a present. The gift you gave him was a red and white onezie with the words “Dad’s Team” written across the chest. You then wrote your Daddy a note saying how excited you were to play ball with him along with wrestling with him. At the end of the note you told your father that you loved him and couldn’t wait to see him.
A couple of days later we found out that you had already left this world. There was no heart-beat on the ultrasound that your Grandfather gave me. The ultrasound told us that you had already gone back to your Father in Heaven two weeks earlier. Grandpa Maughan cried and told me how sorry he was. Grandma cried also. They were both really excited to meet you. Later that day Grandpa explained to Leif and I that miscarriages this late the pregnancy only happen about 1 in 500 pregnancies. He then lovingly told us that with the first heart-beat comes mortal life. You, Kaden, received your mortal body. That is all you needed in this earth life and have now gone to live with your Heavenly Father.
My main and only question was “Why”. Why did God take you from our family? Leif and I were so excited to become parents. But now I realize that God had bigger plans for you. You are a very righteous young man. God needs you in Heaven more then I needed you here. You were willing to leave this earth life early, and I know that must have been a really hard decision. Now I also realize that Daddy and I were willing to give you up. The gospel is true and I look forward to the day I can raise you. Now that you are in Heaven, I know you will be looking over Daddy and me. I know you will become our family’s little Guardian Angel.
Kaden, you will not be forgotten. You do have an earthly family with parents who love you very much. You are the oldest brother in the family and I want you to look after your brothers and sisters always. You are welcome to visit whenever you want. Thanks for making mine and Daddy’s life so happy for the short months you were with us. I will remember the joy you brought into our lives forever. I love you.

Love, your Mother