Today you went back to Jesus

Kaden Leif Kanooth, you are now in heaven. Daddy and I found out today that you no longer live inside of me. You left for heaven sometime before Christmas to be with your Heavenly Father. We don't know why you didn't make it into this Earth life. But Daddy and I both think it is because you are a very special young man. In fact, you are so special that Jesus wanted you back in his presence. Your mission on this Earth was just to get a body.
I am happy to have felt you live inside of me for a few month. I am happy to have carried you for 5 months. I am happy to have had the opportunity of pre-motherhood for these couple of months. Kaden, know that we loved you and will always remember the short time we had with you. You blessed our lives for these short months, and I am sure you will bless more spirits in heaven. Your parents were both righteous people who love the Lord. We know you love the Lord as well. We can't wait to meet you in heaven.

Your Earthly Parents

You are a BOY!!!!!!

December 2nd was a day I have been anticipating for a long time. December 2nd is the day we get to find out if we are having a boy or a girl. The ultrasound was scheduled for 3:15, and we didn't get called back until 4:00. You can only guess what I was thinking for those long 45 minutes. The ultrasound tech took both Leif and I back to the room as my heart kept pounding with excitement. The first picture to pop up on the screen was you. My how big you have gotten. Last ultrasound your whole body fit onto the screen, now it is just your stomach and head. You looked so big. After the tech played around for a minute or two she then asked if we wanted to find out. "YES," I replied.
She quickly found your rear end and we saw that something was there. You are a BOY!!!! I grabbed Daddy's hand and smiled. "We are having a son", I told him.
We are both so excited that you are a boy. In all honestly, I really wanted a little boy first. I had 2 dreams you were a boy and have always had a deep feeling that you were male. Leif is excited to have a son. And I am very excited to have a little Mamma's Boy.
We are not going to tell our families that we found out until Christmas. We have made a video for both parents where the truth will be revealed at the end. It is hard to keep such a great secret from our parents, but we only have 2 more weeks. so shh....
Oh Boy...... Look what I see!!!!!
What a handsome young man you really are.

I felt you kick today

For Thanksgiving your father and I had an exciting dinner with 3 other families. It was great food and we really enjoyed the company. The following day we drove over to Nauvoo so we could go through the temple and re-visit the sites. After a day of being tourist, your father and I went to a play called, Randavo. It was a play put on by the elderly missionaries telling about times the early saints went through. It was so funny to watch the old men attempt a kick line, and the elderly woman sign with their squeaky voices. You must have liked their voices, for I felt you kick for the first time!! There was a tiny punch in my stomach and at first I had no idea what it was. When I finally realized that you were kicking, I grabbed Leif's hand and placed it on my belly. But by that time your fun was over. I believe you must have liked the voices of the missionaries, because you truly were a kicking.

Daddy & Mommy in front of the temple