I miss you.

Hi Baby Kaden,

It was just another day here.  I took your siblings to the park and was watching them play.  Since I had some free time, I called your Aunt Kierstin.  We started talking about your cousin Westin turning 8 next year.  I made a comment to your Aunt about how crazy it would be to have a 7 year old.  She then said that I would have.

It totally caught me off guard.  It's true.  If you were here you would be almost 7.  You would be running around, playing, laughing, and being a kid.  I miss that.  I miss you.  And I want you to know that I still think of you.

I hope you are having fun up in Heaven.  I hope you get to run around and be a kid.  I can't wait to watch you play.

Love your Mother

Your family misses you

I love talking about you

Kaden

I had the opportunity to talk about you today.

At enrichment a mother was telling me about the son she lost.

I told her about you.

Then at book club I meet a girl who lost her boy at 19 weeks.

I again talked about you.

I heard myself saying these words,

"Losing Kaden was a very spiritual and special event." 

And it was.

When you were born I didn't see that.

Now I see how your presents in our family is sacred.

You are our Guardian Angel.

Your birth gives me the empathy to help others who are struggling.

You are a still a part of our family.

Your life makes me strive to be better so I can one day be with you again.

You are still loved.

I know this sounds weird, but I love OUR story. 

I love how special it was birthing you. 

 I love how sweet it was holding your perfect body in my arms. 

 I love where you were buried.

I love how you are OUR Guardian Angel.

I love you.    

    

 

 

Your 6th Birthday

Kaden,
Today you would be 6 years old.  Happy Birthday.  The twins and I made you a turtle cake.  They decorated it with lots of left over Christmas candy.  I'm sorry it's not more beautiful, but I know you wouldn't have it any other way.  Micah and Savannah were so excited to have your birthday party.  We blew up balloons, sang you happy birthday, and ate lots of KISSES for you.  The twins are starting to truly understand that you came to earth but are now in heaven.  They can now explain to others that they have an older brother in Heaven.  And you are a great older brother. 

Sweet Kaden I'm so thankful to have to in my life.  A couple of Sundays ago I gave a lesson on the Plan of Salvation.  I brought your picture to church with me. I showed the class your beautiful picture and explained that through The Plan of Salvation we can be together some day.  In the Spirit World I will get to be your mother if and only if I stay worthy to do so.  Kaden, I will stay worthy.  I can't wait to raise you someday.  Every day I am one day closer to seeing you.  You are my boy, and will always be. 

I love you dear son, and hope you had a great 6th birthday.

your eartly family

May 2014

Hi Little Guy

Kaden,

Today is June 15th, 2014.  I just wanted to say, I love you.  There is no real reason for wanting to write you today.  There is no special event in our lives or spiritual experience that has happened.  Life just moves on.  Your little brother Eli is crawling all over the place.  He loves to be held and cuddled by me.  I love to cuddle him back. 

I can't wait to cuddle you.  I can't wait to see you crawl.  I can't wait to hold you.  And I know in heaven these things will all come true.  I am so blessed to know this.  You are going to be my heaven baby.  I love you.

I still look at your shadow box every night.  I think about you before I go to bed.  You are my first born.  You are my perfect son.  I love you.  

5th birthday

I can't believe you would be 5 today. Happy Birthday Son.  I know you came down and visited us while we celebrated your special day.  I love your special day.  It gives me a reason to watch your video, look at your book, and remember you.  

 

I have been talking about you for the last couple of day to Micah and Savannah.  They were both so excited to have a birthday party and make a cake.  While we were singing to you Micah asked, "Is Kaden going to come down and eat some cake?" 

Savannah responded, "He is in heaven Micah!"

 

We miss you.